Wednesday, October 27, 2010
Tell Me Baby, Where Do We Go From Here?
How do you deal with someone you know you're going to randomly run into, that played you like a fool? This friends appears to be the million dollar question and I have yet to find an answer. Sadly I think he is still convinced he's playing hard to get, but doesn't someone have to want it first? In all of this I have realized he may have been what I like to look at, but he's obviously not my type. My type isn't a guy who is almost 30 playing games a 22 year old shouldn't even be playing. Welcome to the gay world :-( It's all too common. My friend J here is 33 and playing the same games with some poor guy (who's not so innocent, but deserves better than the mindfuck he got). So the question still remains, "Where do we go from here?" It's ever so convenient for you to pretend you didn't act like a jackass and while my passive nature says just let it go, I simply can't. I finally gave a mutual friend of ours (mine and the guys, the same one from dinner the other night) a bit more of the whole story and he was a bit dismayed at the craziness of the mixed signals that were sent my way. It was just nice to finally get confirmation that all of this wasn't in my head. That I didn't overanalyze or misread (well completely misread) the whole situation. No one else was impartial enough to really disclose all the details to (mainly because too many of these gay boys either have feelings for me or are trying to just sleep with me, yeah it sounds conceited but it's the f*$%in sad truth). Anyways, I need to get some sleep. Just wondering what tomorrow will bring. Calm serenity to wrathful vengeance at the drop of a hat and all the other crap in between. Stupid heart- just build a wall, climb to the top and get over it....
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