Is It SO Wrong?

Today in my photo class a girl presented this picture of a guy with an amazing body (picture Abercrombie model) measuring his waist with a tape measure, trying to make it as small as possible. You could see the tape biting into his skin. The photos were about a friend who had battled with anorexia, but the first thing everyone noticed was the body. It's times like this I wonder how unfortunate it would be to become eating disordered. Do the ends justify the means? I just found it very bizarre to see this contrast presented in such a subtle way and even more bizarre at how most people simply couldn't see the depth.
The scary thing about male eating disorders is how little is known about them. I feel like the public has pretty much buried the issue since men aren't supposed to have these types of problems. Unfortunately all of us are stuck in a culture that worships being thin, while the majority of us are simply not.
I think I caught what it was about very quickly because I looked at them at first as simply eye candy. Like taking a picture of something geometric, patterned or textured. I felt like it's easy to make someone who looks like that look good- boring. I don't know whether it's because of the class or because of how the person looked, but my first reaction to the picture was disdain.

After that I feel shallow and disgusted with myself for letting thoughts like this creep into my head. My first thought was I'm definitely going to the gym today. I had already planned to, but this just brought that to the forefront. This is what happens when you become a histrionic exhibitionist. I better be careful, I think my insecurities are showing and they can't simply be tucked away or cut off like a tag on a shirt.
Sadly, at the moment I feel trapped. I'm not thin enough to be "beautiful" and I'm not fat enough to be considered a hopeless/lost cause. I feel like this place in between is where many of us find ourselves. We go to the gym to feel like we are working towards this goal of what our culture calls the ideal.

Next time you look in the mirror, tell me what you see. Is it good? Bad? Ugly? Is it the person you want to see? Expect to see?

Is it you?`