Happiness Is An Odd Sensation, Revenge Is Almost As Sweet As They Say...

I have finally found someone to fill the void that love leaves in many of us at one point or another. I now have a boyfriend. He is amazing. We can sit around and just look at each other for hours at a time. Everything is great. I have found a man who makes me happy. I took a chance on love and won this time around. God, I'm in love. I am kind of new to it all and I love him, but there are some cute guys in the world. I have to promise myself that I won't become at whore and break the heart of someone I actually love for the sake of experimenting with my sexuality. I know I'm kind of late to the game, but he makes me happy and I can't screw this one up. I'm so selfish sometimes.
And then there is the girl. The former bane of my love and attention. I found myself listening to a song recently that describes how I feel about her (it's at the bottom of the post, don't worry). I had dinner with her the other night when she figured it all out. The hickeys on my neck were kind of a give away and she knows me too well for me to lie to her about it. I saw a piece of her die a bit. The fact that I was no longer waiting for her, dependent upon her, it killed her to see me happy. She knows she made a bad decision and it is finally sinking in that I am not going to just sit around and be hers. She tried to tell me she was happy and if you read a transcript of the conversation it would be very convincing. She said all the right things in the least convincing way I have ever heard. There was a moment where I felt sorry for her and then I started relishing in it. I was the happy one. I don't think she has been consistently happy with any of her relationships in a long time, but her emotional adulterer now had a relationship of his own. The affair has ended and she is now left with the reality of her retarded boyfriend. Does it make me a bad person to enjoy seeing her regret breaking my heart?

The All-American Reject- Gives You Hell

I wake up every evening
With a big smile on my face
And it never feels out of place
And you're still probably working
At a nine to five pace
I wonder how bad that tastes

When you see my face
Hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell
When you walk my way
Hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell

Now where's your picket fence love
And where's that shiny car
And did it ever get you far
You never seemed so tense love
I've never seen you fall so hard
Do you know where you are

And truth be told I miss you
And truth be told I'm lying

When you see my face
Hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell
When you walk my way
Hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell
If you find a man that's worth a damn and treats you well
Then he's a fool you're just as well
Hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell

Tomorrow you'll be thinking to yourself
Where did it all go wrong?
But the list goes on and on

And truth be told I miss you
And truth be told I'm lying

When you see my face
Hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell
When you walk my way
Hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell
When you find a man that's worth a damn and treats you well
Then he's a fool, you're just as well
Hope it gives you hell

Now you'll never see
What you've done to me
You can take back your memories
They're no good to me
And here's all your lies
You can't look me in the eyes
With the sad, sad look
That you wear so well

When you see my face
Hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell
When you walk my way
Hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell
When you find a man that's worth a damn and treats you well
Then he's a fool you're just as well
Hope it gives you hell

When you see my face
Hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell
When you walk my way
Hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell
When you hear this song and you sing along but you never tell
Then you're the fool, I'm just as well
Hope it gives you hell

When you hear this song
I hope that it will give you hell

You can sing along
I hope that it puts you through hell