I Feel: Day 2

Today I felt alone and unsatisfied. I feel like I am sacrificing my emotional needs for my physical needs. I want a boyfriend so badly, but haven't found that yet. Instead what I have found is mind blowing sex. It's great, but that spark that something is missing. It's not such a big deal during, although as an aquarius I never actually completely detach from my intellect. Afterwards I am just left feeling even more alone than before... Why can I make this kind of connection physically and be left with such a huge hole emotionally. Now I feel disappointed in myself. The worst part, when I think about the sex I get hard. Then I crave something to snuggle with. Then I feel even more disappointed at the fact that one guy I do actually feel an emotional connection to is 400 miles away and a bit of psychologically unstable (depression, anxiety, negative self image). I am encouraged by the fact that he's in therapy now and just got a new medication for his depression. Its good to see people who want to improve themselves actually doing it. Ok, now that I've rationalized my feelings, I think this is over. I got my feelings down, that's what matters most I guess. More to come maybe later... if not tomorrow