I Go Ahead And Smile...

I am actually proud of myself. Major step forward today. Saw the guy that Matt kissed at the party today on the balcony. Instead of awkwardly making eye contact and walking away continuing the awkwardness of our last interaction (I saw him in the campus convenience store, he turned around just long enough to say "Hi" very quickly then shoved his earbud back in while we waited in line) I actually sucked it up and walked over to him and actually talked to him.
I'm pretty sure he thought I was going to throw him over the balcony (we were on the veranda 2 stories up) because he failed at hiding the fear in his eyes as I approached. It actually felt good to bury the hatchet on this one. I have no problem with him. I can't control Matt and who he "dates"/makes out with. It was just a relief to kind of get one less awkward interaction out of my life. They've been stacking up lately and this is one I could actually nip in the bud, so I did even if he is leaving December for good.


May as well end it with a bit of the baddest bitch...