No Sleep, Why Not?

As I sit on the plane I decided that the limited card games I can play on my computer were no longer interesting and writing a post sounded like more fun. I’m now done with 1/3 of my senior year. Everyone I know is nervous and excited and whatever about what they’re doing after college. Who’s working where and so on… Every time someone asks me my plans and I have to admit them I start to worry. I mean, medical school is a great goal, but if I don’t get in I am fucked. I have no backup plan, no safety net. Having to think about that is the part that worries me. I’m not going to hear shit until the Spring because I’m not smart enough to compete with the kids who had perfect grades and MCAT scores. God, just let me get in somewhere. I would take it… really, anywhere. I’ll figure out the money later.

On another note I just said goodbye to my two best friends at school. I spent 80-90% of my time with them this term and neither of them are going to be back for winter. The most miserable term of the year and I have just been left without the people that get me best. The people that don’t ask me why I never hang out, know me all too well and love to just chill. Granted one of them was the subject of part of the last post, I can honestly say I have another crush. She is cute, funny, sarcastic, real and best of all she gets me. Unfortunately I simply listen to her tell me about who she is interested and whether or not I know any good guys for her. Wonderful! Here we go again. Such is life?!? Damnit.

Wow, maybe I am just too tired to delve any deeper than the thoughts that skim the surface of my mind. There were other things I had meant to mention, but sitting here at 37,000 feet they evade me. I kind of want to try “the circuit” (read Choke) but doubt I have the balls to actually go through with it. I wonder if it even exists. Probably not on this plane… small bathrooms.

I’m gonna give up now, should anything else come to me this page will be the first to know… Kind of upset at myself over the fact that my first post was so good and exactly what I was looking to do and this one seems so superficial and basic. Till next time.