Coming Out...

This blog has seen me come out over time to myself, but now it's coming to the point where I may be getting ready to come out to the rest of the world as well. I have a boyfriend who loves me and things couldn't be better, except that our love is kept secret by my fear of how other people will react. It's not that I think that people will try to lynch me, let's be honest I am bigger than most. My fear is not so much of the big fatalistic reactions that do occur when I think about the worst case, but the smaller changes in my friends. There is a part of me that feels like coming out would change things between some of my best friends here. It's not like telling people you like chocolate ice cream over vanilla, as much as we wish it could be. Sexual preference/orientation/whatever PC term just came up is unfortunately a label that spreads beyond the boundaries that it should. I like men and women... What is the big deal? I may start testing it out on my friends. There are 3 people I have told and there are a handful of gay guys who have caught on to my relationship and thus know about me. It's going to be an interesting ride, we'll see where it takes me. I'll fill in how it goes.

Oh, one last thing, I need to work on my drinking habits. Since we're putting things out there. I just have a tendency to get way too drunk, way too quickly and it usually doesn't end pretty. I am working on it at the moment, I am being berated by several people simultaneously about it, so we shall see how it goes. Plan of action- restrict number of drinks consumed in a night (7-8 instead of 12+) and avoid shots at all costs. Success begets success, so next post should be about