Wednesday, February 18, 2009

Nervous, Tired, A Little Tipsy

I haven't written in a while because I have honestly had nothing interesting to write and I have been busy. The good news- I finally got an interview from a medical school. I'm really scared about it. It is weird when your future depends on one interaction. I also talked to a kid who was deciding between Hopkins and Stanford (if you don't know those are like the two top schools in the country). I wanted so much to hate him, but he is actually a great guy and not too bad on the eyes either.
Apart from that, I met an amazing guy on the internet through blogging. It's almost scary how much we have in common. We have become amazing friends despite the distance between us. Talking to him has been so wonderful and extremely therapeutic. He is the first person I have ever been able to talk about a lot of issues that have been plaguing me lately. Meeting him has helped me so much to sort out my life and how I feel about people, relationships and sex. It is so freeing, so beautiful, like I could be myself for once. For the first time, I can be me. Not that guy who plays football. That guy who is in a frat. That guy the rest of the world knows and judges. I can be me, the guy who loves looking at men and women. The guy who just wants someone to cuddle with late at night, guy or girl. Luckily, I have found a friend that I can love and that loves me for who I am, unconditionally. It's amazing and I have been meaning to write about it.

He knows who he is... I love you.