Bear Trap...

I set it and fell right into it. Why do I care? Why do I even bother anymore. Get a good thing going, then put it on ice fro several months... only bad things can happen. Well, back on ice again. I just don't even want to deal with anyone. A part of me wants to just delete the world, make it go away. I could stop trying to keep in contact with people who seem to clearly not give a damn. The few who do, I would have to apologize if I ever saw them in person again. In the meantime it would save me some heartache and ridiculousness. I so much want a steady group of people I can depend on, but lately it just seems to be a revolving door of disappointment.

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PS Percy, read your Tumblr. So sorry to hear about the what happened with your boy. Hope you all are doing well. So happy you found someone you love. It's beautiful.

FUCK!!!!!

I'm livid. I feel like an idiot. WHy did I ever trust him? Buy into his bullshit? Think anything could survive while I was away on this fucking island? Why do you get to be charming and nice, let me fall for the line of being genuine and that close the pear trap around my neck. At this point I don't think we're even friends. I should have just been smart and called you out on your shit yesterday when I had the chance, but no.... you said sorry you didn't mean to ignore me for a MONTH.  Now I'm at a loss for words. I don't know how to tell you fuck off, or if it's the right call. You say you had to check your schedule and get back to me about a something in July, well let's play the old telephone game. If a boy doesn't call in 3 days he's not interested, at this point I'll assume you're not even interested in a friendship since I don't have time to deal with this type of bullshit in my life. Especially not weeks before the biggest exam of my life thus far.

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